Life lately…

So, I was hired to paint walls (the mural thingy kind.) by an upcoming coffee shop in makati. “Lunas Haven”

Jordi Chin from Watchdogs once said. “Choose a job you love, and you’ll never have to work a single day of your life.”

It’s true. I enjoyed working on this. Plus I’m getting paid to paint walls n’ shit! isn’t that f*ckin’ awesome?!

Well, here’s something I learned from this Game.#1  In our entire lifespan we’re gonna be fucked up, people will fuck us up, we’ll be screwed over and such not just once or twice. No matter how fucking good, nice, honest, honorable, gentle, or anything that could fall into the aspect of the word GOOD. 
Fucking people over, yeah… such is the nature of man. Life is not fair man.#2 We cannot control the circumstances or the situations given to us, but we are given the chance on how we could resolve it.Worse way to react to any given situation is to PANIC. So we must not.#3 Being fucked over by people does not mean you should distrust others.There will be people whom you can always count on.#4 Put matters into your own hands, do not always count on others if you can do it yourself. Though it does not mean that you should never ask for help.#5 There are people who LOVE you. Always.#6 RECIPROCATE, people fuck you up, you get mad, you want to have revenge. A man once said "An eye for an eye, makes the world go blind." thus making everything more complicated, and tensions last longer. Forgive not because they deserve to be pardoned, but because you deserve peace.#7 Only ourselves can determine who we’re going to be.#8 We make our choices, we take what comes from it."Oh my god, Video games are a waste of time! Get a life!" is most likely the sentence in the forefront of the mind of people who’re disinterested in the industry of Gaming. Yes, I wasted time in the process of enriching my perceptions pertaining life and society, from a compelling story.

Well, here’s something I learned from this Game.

#1  In our entire lifespan we’re gonna be fucked up, people will fuck us up, we’ll be screwed over and such not just once or twice. No matter how fucking good, nice, honest, honorable, gentle, or anything that could fall into the aspect of the word GOOD. 

Fucking people over, yeah… such is the nature of man. Life is not fair man.


#2 We cannot control the circumstances or the situations given to us, but we are given the chance on how we could resolve it.

Worse way to react to any given situation is to PANIC. So we must not.

#3 Being fucked over by people does not mean you should distrust others.
There will be people whom you can always count on.

#4 Put matters into your own hands, do not always count on others if you can do it yourself. Though it does not mean that you should never ask for help.

#5 There are people who LOVE you. Always.

#6 RECIPROCATE, people fuck you up, you get mad, you want to have revenge. A man once said "An eye for an eye, makes the world go blind." thus making everything more complicated, and tensions last longer. Forgive not because they deserve to be pardoned, but because you deserve peace.

#7 Only ourselves can determine who we’re going to be.

#8 We make our choices, we take what comes from it.


"Oh my god, Video games are a waste of time! Get a life!" is most likely the sentence in the forefront of the mind of people who’re disinterested in the industry of Gaming. Yes, I wasted time in the process of enriching my perceptions pertaining life and society, from a compelling story.

Let go of your earthly tether. Empty, and become wind.



It gave me a realization on how frail we humans can be, on how we expect so much from life, and how we hope to lead a happy and fulfilling one. Now, with so much expectations we are so bound to the illusion that life is all rainbows and butterflies, that we forget about the harsh realities on what can befall us on our journey in life. 

Life is full of suffering, Suffering is the result of attachment—- in this case, our attachment to our presumptions on life. Basically, we expect life to be something other than it is. We expect that we will always be fulfilled, and so we get angry and sad when we do not achieve it. We expect not to be poor, not to die, not to experience pain and loss—but we’re going to experience those things, and we further extend the difficulty by resisting it. By accepting the pain and not being attached to the imagined alternative version of life where that pain doesn’t exist, we can move through it.

I understood that I should stop being so mad at pain and loss. For it is a part of life. To stop making myself so miserable by wishing I could change things that I can’t change and beyond my control. I shall embrace life for what it is. ” well,it’s not like our hatred and judgement can change this aspect of life. One should just accept it and let yourself experience life as it is rather than life as you wish it would be.”

"Let go of what troubles you, and be free."

09/18/2014 (nothing interesting occurred)

9:30 am : slept early yesterday, and woke up late. (whut duh fuck body?).
Despite waking up late, I still managed to engage and tackle my daily regiment of manly endeavors (like what?), pick up dog shit in the living room, cook breakfast, and my dedication of working out to achieve a Chris Pratt physique. No School today.

around 12 noon : did school projects, while watching a Sherlock Holmes movie (The one that Robert Downy Jr. was in) and some art stuff in between. Then immediately got drained. (I dunno, I easily get exhausted when doing things in which I am compelled to do. Or things that I do not LOVE doing).

3 pm : Proceeded to my daily time of contemplation in which I smoke cancer sticks ( you know, those things commonly known as cigarettes?) and quietly weeping inside my mind about how I suck at doing art, and thinking that I am a failure for pursuing an ART DEGREE. (thank you for opening my eyes, PARADIGM the ADVENTURE GAME!! Look it up, people!)

4 pm : Continued doing art stuff. (experimentation with photoshop effects.)

6 pm : Resting, with so little accomplished. Contemplated about pregnancies… about how babies stay in the womb for 9 months, but when they come out they’re not considered 9 months old.

6:30 pm : The Witcher 2

8:05 pm : Art stuff.

10:10 pm : check shit out on the internet. (school updates in particular.) 

11:02 pm : Thought about how I fucking hate cockroaches, those damn things. (hey, wanna know why we’re bothered by these things? It is because humans are hotwired to things that scuttle and… oh, nevermind it’s all egghead shit anyway.)

11:40 pm : now blogging about all this shit. and it is now bedtime for me. (yes, shut up about it. I sleep early… well, not that early.)

I once again reflected about what BANKSY said…
"They say you die twice. One time when you stop breathing and a second time, a bit later on, when somebody says your name for the last time.”

I guess being forgotten entirely is more terrifying than dying.